Vandaag hebben wij wel iets heel speciaals, zeer emotioneel, frustrerend en wat voor Erin
een dag is waar zij elk jaar weer mee geconfronteerd wordt!!!
Ik heb besloten om haar verhaal dan ook niet te vertalen en het in haar eigen zeer emotionele
woorden aan jullie te vertellen.
The
7 year anniversary of my daughter Kristen's death was coming up and my
son asked
to see pictures of his little sister. She passed away very
unexpectedly of SIDS when she was
4 months old and it forever changed
who I am.
You never get over a loss of a child, but you work though
it. My way of working
through the pain is my creative outlet, it was
the reason I really started to scrapbook and delve
deep into the art and
craft world.
The picture is of my husband and I at the funeral home the day before
the funeral.
We chose to have her body embalmed, but just for us to
view.
We felt it would be odd for our friends
and family to see a dead
baby, and I still feel a bit weird letting people
see the pictures of
here like this, I would rather everyone see
her alive and happy.
When
we went to view her that day a friend came with the program
Now I Lay Me
Down To Sleep to take pictures of our last moments with our daughter.
I
have not looked at these pictures since the day of the funeral when she
gave them to me.
They went on a shelf and I really just have not had
the strength to see them again and
bring up all the memories of that
painful day. Time has gone by,
and my son who is now 10 (he was 3 when
she passed) is still asking tons of questions
about what happened to her
and asked to see the pictures.
There was a lot of crying on both of
our parts while viewing the pictures, and I decided
it was time to do
something with them.
My emotions are fully obvious in the picture and tried to convey that
feeling of pain,
anguish, love, frustration, hurt, numbness, and just
anger into my layout.
I used a ton of paper tearing, layers of gesso,
other mediums, stencils, splatters, misting, and really
just getting mad
at my layout beating it all to hell as a poured my heart into the
piece.
Erin.....
